A Thousand Words Can't Bring You Back,
I Know Because I Tried
And Neither Can a Million Tears
I Know Because I Cried."
~Author Unknown

letters to heaven..............

Sooo this week going be sooo hard!!I miss you my baby boy!!Your big brother was talking about you earlier he misses you!!You guys were suppose to buddies together!!I cant believe it been almost 6 months since youve been gone!!I hope you made friends with some angel babies!!I know mommy has meet some awesome angel mommies!!Tell grandma and papa phillips i said hi!!I know there taking good care of you!!Pls watch over me this week i have not not felt bad like is this in few months im taking this pretty hard!!!Satuarday were doing race for the cure for grandma sue i hope you watch over us!!Bring the sunshine out bubba not too hot please!!Mommy gotta go but she misses you and loves you!!!!!!

Praying............

I took my practical test!!Im hoping Aidden was watching over me even though i was a nervous wreck though!!Next will mark his 6 months mark of being gone!!Not day goes by i dont think of him!I try talk about him with the kids everyday which people say i look soo strong talking about him!I try to be cause i know he doesnt want me to be sad he was just blessing and he was too beautiful for earth!!!

The day we dreaded!!!

This was the day we all dreaded putting my baby boy to rest!!I got 6am i couldnt sleep much anyways.It was cold december morning we got there and we had little room!!They ended up moving us to the big chappel cause we had a line 15 minute before the wake was suppose start!!The hardest part walking into the room even thoom my ugh it was closed casket!!My father in law made most beautiful casket he carved Aidden name in it!!I had alot of friends and family that made it that day which was amazing whole chappel was filled that when we noticed how much support we had!The drive to the cemetry that what i was dreading the most....how am I suppose to turn walk away from my baby that i carried 9 months and had some memories of 7wks him!!That worstwas walkingf from him but he not alone he with my grandparents that puts some ease with me!!We had luncheon afterwards that alotta of family put together which was nice!!!

If I could have some fairy dust
To make my dreams come true
I`d take it with me in my sleep
So I could dream of you

I`d dream I were an angel
If only for one day
So I could be in Heaven
Just to spend the day with you

I`d tell you how I loved you so
And Missed you oh so much
And how just for a little while
You were mine but not to keep

I`d hold you oh so very close
But then I`d have to go
You see my little Angel
You were my gift but not to keep

I have to say night night now
Its time for me to go
But this feeling in my heart for you
Will never go to sleep

The Day My Life Changed Forever!!!!

I Could remember like it was yesterday!!I GOT up every morning got mollee and hannah dressed!Jeff got aidden medicine out and went to give it to him but noticed he was blue and not breathing!!I call 911 as the girls stood outside until the ambulance got to our house!!After working on him for 5 minutes there was nothing they could do!We had 4 or 5 cops,2 investagotors and 1 medical examinier in our house!!It was the scariest thing iv ever been through!!Sitting at my mom house later that afternoon i could feel my spirt was with him or maybe he was with us!!Jeff said he felt it to!!I have the best family and friends out there they all came to my moms or at least call check up on me!!We stayed at my parents house for a week which i think helped us alot!!Thanks to my inlaws they changed our rooms and cleaned up sooo we really didnt notice when we got back to our house!!!This day made me realize how precious life really is and how much ive been blessed with!!!!